Friday, December 21, 2007

The Story of "NA"


I think I've already lost youI think you're already goneI think I'm finally scared nowYou think i'm weak, I think you're wrongI think you're already leavingFeels like your hand is on the doorI thought this place was an empireNow I'm relaxed, I can't be sureI think you're so meanI think we should tryI think I could need this in my lifeI think I'm scaredI think too muchI know it's wrong, it's a problem I'm dealingIf you're gone, maybe it's time to come homeThere's an awful lot of breathing roombut I can hardly moveIf you're gone, baby you need to come home, oh come homeThere's a little bit of something mein everything in youI bet you're hard to get overI bet the room just won't shineI bet my hands I can stay hereI bet you're mean, more than you mindI think you're so meanI think we should tryI think I could need this in my lifeI think I'm just scared that I know too muchI can't relate and that's a problem I'm feelingIf you're gone, maybe it's time to come homeThere's an awful lot of breathing roombut I can hardly moveIf you're gone, baby you need to come homeThere's a little bit of something mein everything in youI think you're so meanI think we should tryI think I need this in my lifeI think I'm scaredDo i talk too muchI know it's wrong, it's a problem I'm feelingIf you're gone, maybe it's time to come homeThere's an awful lot of breathing roombut i can hardly move(Lyric from a song of If you’re gone by Matchbox 20 )
Sometimes I felt so emptyness, I felt so lonely,I felt so speechless, can’t do anything…Can’t thingkin’n…Can’t breathing…I’m feelin’n so blue rite now…I did not understand why GOD give me such a life like that.Living in uncertainty conditionThere’re so many testing that I shoud pass it.Pass it or Left it???Such a hard choiceI miss my DAD who already passed away…Miss my mom’s smile, a happier smile…A happy smile before my dad already gone…
Kadang qu bingung dgn semua iniKnp cobaan datangnya dgn bertubi-tubi?Knp gw yg dipilih oleh Tuhan utk cobaan ini?Apa gw bisa ngelewatinya?Knp orang yg harusnya bisa jd tempat sandaran qu tak kunjung memberikan kepastian?Memberikan kabar gembira yg setidaknya bisa mengobati pilu ini?Memberikan jawaban atas semua iniYang hanya bisa kulakukan saat ini adalah menyibukkan diri dengan kerjaan quIngin rasanya sedikit melupakan segalanyaMelupakan sang arjuna yg sempat melupakan janji kitaMelupakan teman2Melupakan para sahabatku yg terus memberikan support atas keberhasilan quEntah sampai kapan masalah ini akan berakhir???Teman pernah bilang kalau takdir yg diperlihatkan oleh kita, bisa kita rubah.Takdir yg tidak diperlihatkan oleh kita, sudah pasti akan terjadi dan kita Tidak bisa u/merubahnya, seperti kematian..Kalau saja para sahabat sudah tidak mendukungku ,mungkin sudah dari dulu2 diriku ini Akan jauh dari jalanNYA.Oh GOD let me get out from this condition…Let me know who’s gonna be my faith…